Sorry, it's been a while since I last posted. I don't know who I'm apologizing to. An empty room? The dust-laden corridors of this lonely corner of the interwebs? Seems pretty likely.
Has anything been going on in my life since the last time I posted? Hahaha, yeah. Yes, life has been showing its head around these parts pretty often, sometimes with good gifts (for example, Crazy Old Maurice will be releasing its first album soon, and I'm hecka excited about that), other times with gut-punches that still linger (of which I've been tempted to post about on here, but have [more or less] refrained from doing out of respect to people's privacy [I actually wrote out a really long blog post about this, but took it down. I've still got it but I can't imagine that I'd post it]).
I know that, so far, this post has been so ambiguous as to basically not be saying anything at all, but... oh well? I'll be honest, I'd love to let go and release all of my thoughts and feelings on here, but, you know what? That's not going to help anything. And, as much as I claim otherwise, occasionally somebody might find their way on here and read this, and they're not going to want to read about my failures, pitfalls, and heartaches. Asi dice la experiencia, por lo menos.
Okay, now that that's out of my system, I'll tell you about some other things that are going on in my life that are, perhaps, neither good nor bad. You can decide, if you want.
So, first off, I'm trying to stay here for the summer. The plan when I came out here was that I would go to school until the winter semester was over and then go back to Ohio to work for the summer, to support myself in the next year. When I made that plan, I did not have a band or a girlfriend I was committed to. Now, I still don't have a girlfriend, but I do have a band, and I don't want to up and leave this place when we could be doing so much good work if I were here.
Trouble is, that means I'm going to have to miss out on some of the things I wanted to do over the summer; specifically, at least one friend's wedding. That's tough. I've been really good friends with this guy for about eight years, and I love him and his fiancee, and it would be really hard to miss that. But I've got to do what feels right for me, don't I? If I feel like I should be here, then here's where I should be, right? It still feels like suck.
The second thing that's going on which is perhaps neither good nor bad is that I'm switching my major. Up to this point, since my sophomore year of high school, I've been planning on becoming an English professor. Lately though ("lately" being defined as the past year or so), English hasn't really been doing it for me. I've been looking into going somewhere else with my schooling anyway, and last semester I took a class in International Relations, and I absolutely loved it; I was particularly interested in the history parts of the class.
Based on this, and some interviews I've had with counselors, I've all but decided I'm switching my major to History. The plan will still remain the same (go to grad school, eventually end up as a professor at some university [this is all assuming the whole rock star thing doesn't work out]), it'll just be the subject that I'm dealing with that will change.
This was kind of a strange step for me. I mean, the entire path ahead of me for the rest of my life was just heavily altered. The professors I meet, the fellow students I work with here at BYU, that all changed, and along with it was the school I'll go to for post grad, and what my specialization will be, and where I'll end up working, all of that changed with this decision. Therefore, the place that I live, all the people I meet, basically every experience that I'll have for the rest of my life was just totally changed. It's a weird feeling. How many people am I never going to meet now? How many will I meet that I would never have otherwise met?
I guess it's pretty pointless to wonder about such things. I could almost certainly never know it, so not much need to worry about it, right? It's still a totally weird thing.
Anyway. So that's what's going on in my life right now. So you're all caught up now. Thanks for reading (assuming that you did)! I hope it wasn't just catastrophically boring.
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